Have you ever felt that you dont know how to handle a break? – makes you laugh at the question right? Well, thats how I feel. Last week I was wondering what will i do if I dont get a break. And today when I stand at some 30 hours away from it… I am scared!
Scared that I dont know how I am going to be able to switch off the phone and not feel bad for missing irritating calls. Scared that I will probably not be able to leave ideas behind, scared that I will get up at 6.30am thinking that I need to rush and finish something pending, urgent, not that urgent but pending…Scared that I will feel bad for going away and being myself for 4 days! – Now that’s insane. What do you call this? – I think Workoholic is like a very teenie weenie word to descirbe it right? Feels like a syndrome to me.
Any clue how to solve this? don’t tell me “not to think…” thats not a solution! – I have been meditating and it doesnt seem to work. So not thinking is not an option here. And btw scientifically there is nothing like not thinking. So?